I Actually Fell Off My Unicorn…

I saw this post the other day and it resonated with me. I can laugh now, but years ago, I actually fell off my unicorn and never got back on. This is an example of how we let others keep us from being true to ourselves.

I distinctly remember the moment I was told that I lived in fantasy land and that I needed to get my head out of the clouds. Life was not a fairy tale and I need to get real. I was to know that life was not fair, life was not easy and that I had better suck it up and get over it. At that moment I felt the life get sucked out of me. I actually think I stopped breathing. I was crushed and felt so helpless and alone. Looking back, I know I felt that way because it was a direct hit to my soul and my truth. Instead of understanding that and listening to myself, I let go and stopped fighting for my soul and my truth.

Just to be clear, this person did not do anything to me. I chose to believe the words and make another’s opinion my truth. I let fear, insecurity, and self-doubt take over and push my feelings into the deepest reaches of my soul. However, I remember knowing, deep down, it wasn’t true, but I let myself get sucked into believing I was wrong. I fought against my insecurities and lost. It was swift, dream-crushing and lasting.

I now know that fear is what kept me small and from being my true self. Today, when I recognize fear (not the life-or-death kind) I take a deep breath and choose to let it go. Fear is not real; it is my recollection of old memories and my perception of those memories. It is also my perceived projection of what can happen in the future. It is also based on the thoughts, judgments, opinions, and ideas of others, that have nothing to do with me. We should not fear what has not happened. Our mind just wants us to think we know how everything will turn out. It cannot know, as each moment is unique and new. However, your soul knows, we just have to learn to listen.

By the way, I do believe in fairy tales. I hope you do too!